Feeling a little lost. Summer of 2008 I found out I had herpes. I cried myself to sleep and was depressed for months. Six months later I started sprouting what seemed to be genital warts. I was so scarred from my first doctor's visit I never wanted to go back. I tried to use the prescription that my doctors gave me however every time I had to pick up my prescription it was $700 after the second time I picked up my prescription and it did not work I just couldn't afford it. I am so disgusted and heartbroken every time I take the mirror to take a look. As of right now I am trying to use the AVC treatment as well as could Teatree oil. Everything is happening what everybody says were supposed to happen such as my warts turning white however that is all that they do. I can't think of a worse feeling than being disgusted self-conscious embarrassed with your looks down there. when I use the AVC the next morning it's very painful to apply once more, I have been switching from AVC to Teatree oil every day for about a week now but not seeing any difference in size or them turning white. Since I'm being completely honest I have still not come to peace with the fact that I have HPV, sometimes I still cry my self to sleep, just on the fact alone that I could possibly or already have pass it on to my lover. He knows of my status and states that he does not care however it is still heartbreaking to know that I could pass on to him the same pain and guilt that I'm going through. I am seeking desperate help not only for my emotional reasons but also physical.
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