My name is Erica, and I have had panic attacks since I was 13, i'm 24 now. Most people can say their fear or phobia is at least adult.Ever since I was 13 I have been terrified of falling asleep,being alone, or being in the dark. I have tried psychology, psychiatry, self help, guided meditation and drooling medication. I cannot simply avoid my fear, every night I must force myself into a room I know will trigger a several hour long panic attack. I will suffer in silence because others can't understand my fear, and I sometimes am positive I will die before I wake. I know this probably isnt what you want to hear but i needed to share with someone the horrid existence im experiencing. People think im lazy because I stay up late and sleep in all day, the truth is even being in my room in the dark causes me so much anxiety its normally 4-5 am before I fall asleep. Like I said I have tried it all. I love marijuana. I have panic attacks at the thought of falling asleep, which isnt condusive to falling asleep, go figure. I usually smoke (or make banana bread) Right at the first sign of sweating. I love marijuana because not only does it allow your brain to react to the stimuli at a slower pace, it also keeps all your muscles loose, which helps because if yours are like mine, they get done and you feel like youve run a marathon. I hate sleeping and cant take sleeping pills because they have a wicked morning after effect AND I will fight them until they wear off. I know you take a sleeping pill to sleep, well my PTSD wont allow that to happen. I recently went back to the psychologist and he said he wanted to help me re-experience the event, no thank you, once was enough.
Smoke some pot, bake it in to your baked goods, I dont care how you ingest it, but if your having a panic attack, grab a blanket, call that one good friend who understands, and spark a bowl, you can't fight it, you just have to learn to ride the wave of PTSD, good luck my friends